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I wanna scream. It makes me feel alive. Is it enough to love? Is it enough to breathe? Is it enough to die? Somebody save my life... to walk within the lines would make my life so boring. I want to know that I have been to the extreme so knock me off my feet. C'mon now, give it to me. Anything to make me feel alive. Let down your defenses, use your common sense, if you look you will see that this world is beautiful. I wanna taste it don't wanna waste it away...
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[06 Jan 2003|02:48am] |
His AE shirt ... $35
His A&F shorts ... $48
His GAP boxers ... $12
His Adidas sandals ... $20
All these items on your floor PRICELESS O:-)
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[06 Jan 2003|02:36am] |
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Damn. ^ That's really how I feel. How I always feel after breaking up with a guy (a guy I didn't like at least). Why is it that I have a delay on realizing how stupid people are? I have a week crush period where I don't notice. Then I wait 2 weeks trying to understand why I always end up dumping rather then being broken up with... I'm too damn picky. My big problem. But without naming any names... he is BY FAR the biggest dumbass I have met in a very very long time... so sad so sad. He and I were friends for a long time too... haha yea that's completely over. WELL I can at least say I got something positive out of that short waist of time... Kim is awesome. I'm so glad her and I have become friends. Poor girl def suffered longer then I did... I am ashamed that I BELIEVED him when he said so many horrible things about her... if I hadn't decided to keep talkin to her "just to be nice" I would never have known what a lier he was. She's great. I'm really glad we are friends... hahha all burping aside. You know... for knowing myself so well... or at least thinking I do... I sometimes come up with some shocks... I PRETEND. Well not completely. I pretend feelings in a relationship... like I'm giving a show... and I'm ashamed of that. I'm so horribly one of those people who speaks her mind and doesnt give a shit what other ppl think... but htne I give guys false impressions... to be completely truthful i've actually had whole hearted feelings for waht? 2 guys in my entire life? And every guy i've even flirted with probably thinks i was crazy for them. This is something to work ok. Somehting big to work on. But you know honestly - I have gotten to the point in my life where I am anti-guys. I done. Myabe it's just that I know too much of waht I want. I can't justp lay... and i certainly don't want to pretend anymore. Plus I'm happier single. Jealous boys suck.
So I'm worried about my brother... um again... when does it stop really? He has changed. He is not the same person he use to be. I use to love how close we were... and now suddenly he doesnt talk to me. Not like he sees me - he is never home. Haha he and all his friends have decided to become red heads. Oh well.
So get this... I filled out the fafsa stuff and they are saying my parents should pay practically ALL of my tuition to Stetson. Damn. Looks like Ali's not gonna be getting a lot of spending money from daddy next semester... it's all gonna be going to paying for college! Thank god my gpa is high... Straight A's with my all duel enrolled schedule doesnt hurt either... That's around a 4.6 for this semester... I'm curous what my gpa will be at graduation... but i've already gotten one KILLER scholarship from stetson and there are more on the way... plus i have the joy of meeting all those alumni tuesday...
Oh god I am SO excited for classes to start!!! The 15th seems so long from now... everybody is starting already. I know Ry starts Tuesday. My classes this semester kick ass. Well a few do. College algebra and Comp 2 honors aren't all that exciting... but the others are making me long for them to start. I'm bored I guess. I've been reading like crazy all break, or as much as I could, and I'm ready for some descusions and lectures. I am a nerd. I hated high school... I hate phcc too... it is shitty, but it is at least better then WC. I can learn there. Yea, it's the kind of place where you pass easily enough but really, the prof's care, and you do have a great opportunity to learn if you really want to. I can't wait to get to Stetson... I really do eat up all the stuff Kev tells me about waht's he is learning. It's awesome to still be best friends with him. He is interested in the same stuff i amm... i love that... and he doesnt mind just teaching me what he learned in class... haha he gets into it knowing how excited I am over it. Ok, i'm a nerd. Who knew i'd end up feeling like this? But hey, it's lasted a semester now... this huge excitemtn for learnin' ... and everybody knows how enthusiastic i've always been about college...
Anyways, I'm gonna jump into Hanity's Let Freedom Ring and relax in a little bubble bath... everyone at my highschool and all my usf buddies, good luck w/ ur new classes... have fun.
<3/ALi
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[21 Nov 2002|03:20am] |
I am going to the Sig Ep formal this weekend. I am SO excited. It is at some really nice hotel in downtown orlando. wow, it is ognna be great. Hopefully Ashleigh can go up with me. A friend doesnt have a date so he askedm e to bring a friend... :)
OK, I have to get some sleep. Was up all last night w/ my 12 page research paper for comp1 and all night tonight talkin about Stetson formal stuff. Oh and talkin' to Stephen. STEPHEN RYAN IS HOT.... something for me to dream of tonight ;)... haha wait till he hears about me saying that!
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[14 Oct 2002|03:48pm] |
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I have this horribly large research paper to write... it will take me until the end of the semester to do it... ugh
Ash and I are cool again, thank god!
K so what's up w/ my bf? I dont understand... he is such a guy... and I'm not in the mood to write bc everything changes too fast... I gotta go to the mall... PEACE
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[03 Sep 2002|05:46pm] |
I AM: to old for my age
I KNOW: how to be happy
I HAVE: a great life
I WISH: I had more time for the important things
I HATE: lying, or being lied to
I MISS: my kitty Shadow
I FEAR: Snakes!!!! ugh
I HEAR: music
I SEARCH: for baseball info
I WONDER: why I dont care more for certain ppl....
I REGRET: not getting to know Joe sooner ;)
I LOVE: being respected at my job
I CARE: about what ppl think... sadly....
I ALWAYS: procratinate
I AM NOT: a good speller
I DANCE: not nearly often enough
I SING: in the shower...
I CRY: over the most stupid things
I DO NOT ALWAYS: drive safely
I FIGHT: as little as possible
I WRITE: whenever it is unavoidable
I LOST: faith in the basic goodness of people
I CONFUSE: Mike Johnson
I LISTEN: to critisism
I CAN USUALLY BE FOUND: working, studying, or at phcc
I NEED: to have ppl to confide in
I AM HAPPY ABOUT: a few wonderful friendships recently developing in my life :)
I SHOULD: Work less, Study more
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Happiness will come when you are with the one who can take you places you never were but always knew *Midtown
So does age really matter?
Joe is amazing, I've never met a guy like him. So damn old. No matter what happens though, we got something special and for that I am grateful.
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"If I were to wish for anything, I should not wish for wealth and power, but for the passionate sense of the potential, for the eye which, ever young and ardent, sees the possible. Pleasure disappoints, possibility never. And what wine is so sparkling, what so fragrant, what so intoxicating, as possibility!" - Soren Kierkegaard
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[21 Aug 2002|03:44pm] |
A bitch is a female dog, and dogs are animals, and animals are a part of nature, and nature is beautiful. So when I call you a bitch, I am just trying to say you are beautiful...
.... One of the many crazy things jason thinks of... lol
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[21 Aug 2002|10:46am] |
"The sky will never look the same again until you show me how it could be" -- New Found Glory
I just got home from class... I start PHCC tomorrow... scary stuff...
I havent touched this in a while. Nothing to say though... ttyl
ALicat
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[28 Jul 2002|12:18am] |
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I am finally home, we arrived in tampa international around 1030 today... our frecking flight left at 730!!! I'll tell you, boston is amazing, but the logan airport there sucks some major ass. I plan on revisiting in 5 yrs when they are done w/ construction... can you belive that? they've been doing work for 8 yrs already and still have 5 to go. Thats so rediculous! Maine was ok... the cottage was a min walk from the ocean which was pretty much the most beautiful view i've seen in my 17 yrs. Kinda got old. I love my family, but they got sorta annoying. Ry is awesome as shit, but as the trip[ continued my brother seemed to get more and more immature. I will miss boston though, Derek told me its his fav city and I have to whole heartedly agree. Its stunning. I would love to live there, eventually. As for right now, Its around 12 and with me waking up at 515 this morning, I'm sleepy. I'm sitting on the comp waiting for Ashleigh to get off the phone, but the mac and chz is ready, so i gotta jet and chow down guys. All i've eaten in the last week is 4star shit and i'm craving junk food! give me a ring if ya wanna hit up micky d's ....
<3/Ali
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| My Shadow... |
[18 Jul 2002|01:38am] |
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We have to put my cat to sleep. I told my parents that I have to go - I need to be there with him. So my daddy and I are taking my baby tomorrow. I am so upset. Its so hard to belive that this is the last night he can sleep next to me, and wake me up purring in my face. God, this sucks. I guess in a way I am lucky. This is the closest I have ever experianced death. I am going to miss my cat so muhc. My parents have a dog. I have my cat. I am so sad. He only has a day to live.... god this is depressing, I want to cry.
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[08 Jul 2002|05:37pm] |
Ashleigh and I just got back from the beach. It was cloudy and soooo windy. We were covered in sand! But all and all it was fun. I really didnt get too tan though. Maybe I will lay out tomorrow... I'm gonna go do laundry! :-D so fun!
<3/Ali
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[08 Jul 2002|03:56am] |
Red: 23/100 Blue: 10/100 White: 4/100 Yellow: 8/100
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Take the Color Code Test
by Dano
I wonder if this is right...
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[08 Jul 2002|03:21am] |
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Is that even how you spell fickel? .... Kevin use to always tell me that I change friends a lot. I wonder if thats true. After Ashleigh, Nikole is my best friend... but she pisses me off lately, and it seems like instead of just talking to her about wahts wrong, I almost just want to drop her and not care. But then again, if I ever have a problem w/ kev or Ash, I will talk ot them about it asap. Not that i have too many probs w/ Ashleigh... and None w/ kevin lately... But still ---- I was whinning to kev about how I was feeling screwed over by Nik... and he kept telling me to just talk to her about it... and I pretty much didnt want to. He repeated over and over that she is one of my best freinds, and a very important person to me, and that our friendship is worth saving and all that... and anyways... I hung out w/ her tonight. I really didnt want to at first, but did. After we started hanging out it was better. We saw Mr. Deeds... afterwards we hung out w/ some guys.... when we were driving back to her place we began talking though... and then just sat there in the car for quite a while and talked. We then went to super walmart to buy some candles... lol... but eventually I actually got everything I was upset about out in the open. Its soooo much better now. I'm so glad we talked. I think most of my probs w/ her are over...
I feel bad sometimes... Nikole has had such a tough life... I just wnat to give her waht she's not had. LOL I feel like a mother, or girlfriend, or something. She is so strong, there are so many things I admire about her. But htne again, she is so insecure about stuff, and worries so much.
I'm going to the beach in the morning. My lazy ass hasnt rolled out of bed before 1 in about 2 weeks... but tomorrow Ahs said she'd be at my house around 10. Haha... I want to go work out before that. I will have to get up around 830. Its after 330 now. Wonder if it will happen. So I'm gonna get to bed now so i can try. Good luck to me! Night guys! MWAH...
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[05 Jul 2002|03:03am] |
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Just got home... Today was actually a very very good day. I expected to be bored or something... but I had A LOT of fun!
I woke up and went to lunch w/ ma mere and Ry. Then had to work :( but made some $$ doing to-go so it was cool I guess. After work I went over to Dereks. We hung out for a bit at his house, then went to Paul Meriony (my brother's best friend)'s party. Hung out w/ my brother and all his friends which was kinda interesting. Mike Roth was there, and Stephen Seal.... it was nice seeing them again. Then we went to Steve's house. Laboy, Onna, and Kyle met us there and we chilled for a while. Then I went swimming and out to a late dinner w/ kevin.... just got back. haha, i hear its not good to eat so late.... I shouldnt eat right before bed so much.
I have to work yet again tomorrow. Then I think I'm goig to a kerioki bar. Should be fun.
NIKOLE IS COMING HOME TOMORROW!!!!! I'm so damn excited. YAY! I gotta go to bed I'm exhausted! G'NIGHT....
<3/Ali
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[02 Jul 2002|11:40am] |
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Ok, to anybody else, I think it's not a big deal... but I have just recently learned how to do my own laundry. I learned about 2 weeks ago. I was at Nik's one day and she started doing her laundry... lol i was sooo impressed. So I told my mom to teach me how, she did, and then we went shopping for a cute laundry basket... now I can do my own!!! Its so exciting! So I'm about to do that! haha...
Wish me luck- I have my aptmt w/ the surgen today... my mouth is not completely better, so I don't know waht to think.
<3/ALi
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[02 Jul 2002|02:11am] |
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So tonihgt was ok... today was a horrible day though. Seriously - I have been crying all day. Its insane! And over nothing. My mom and Nikole think its the medicine I'm on. Maybe it is... I was sooo depressed all day. So thank god I have Nik to get my mind on to more interesting things... like hot frat guys... hehe.
We just went over to Jason and Daves tonight... their other roomate, Neil, just had $600 laying around and decided to buy a kegerator (sp?) with it... so they have draft beer just sitting next to the couch. Haha, seriously - its all those boys have been talking about for the last 4 days. So Nik and I go over there expecting greatness.... it wasnt too impressive, but hey, draft bud light is not bad... we're thinking next time they fill up we will demand amber bock...
We didn't do much, just chilled, played cards and drank. But I had fun, and my night didnt involve too much crying... I was sitting in a bubble bath until around 10 when Nikole called and made me come out ... I'm very glad I did.
I miss Ash! Need to see her soon!!!!!!!
Tomorrow is my last (hopefully last) aptmt w/ my surgen... all my swelling has not gone away though, so mabye not. Anyways, I got the office a card, and maybe some desserts or something? I'm not sure what to give them, but they took such wonderful care of me this whole time... lol i'm gonna miss everybody when I stop going for all these aptmts!! :*( They are all very sweet people.
Ok, I'm going to finish checking my email then I'm off to bed, have to wake up early tomorrow... meeting mom for lunch around 1200 and then my aptmt is at 130... wish me luck! Maybe this will be the first time i leave that place w/o more drug perscriptions!
Goodnight! As Jason would say... PEACE AND CHICKEN GREASE.... (I know, I have weird friends)
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| My daddy |
[01 Jul 2002|02:24pm] |
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My daddy has suddenly learned how to DL songs... he has got all these awesome oldiest lol, its pretty cool... I'm listening to the ish now... He bough himself a new truck for father's day, its beautiful! 2002 Dodge Ram... its this pretty (manly) bluish color! I LOVE IT!! So does he. But he got a cd player in there, and didnt have one in his last truck, so now he is making some music! Haha, I think it's pretty cool...
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